Lately, I guess I've just been really busy with too much other crap. Too much thinking about what I want to do with my life.. and just being far too stressed out with where I am at now. Quitting smoking sure went out the window fast for me. Any time I've tried quitting, it's always the stress that beings it back up again.
Mostly my fault though, I allow my job to stress me out more than it should.
That being said, you would think I had some serious hard working job... HA! I don't at all.. I work in retail.. which in theory, is pretty fucking simplistic. However, when your boss creates stress for you every day, based on their own personal bullshit.. it's no longer a simple retail job.
My job description, according to what I do... is endless.
If you ever decide to work for a locally owned business.. make sure you either know that this business isn't just scraping by every day. Or, make sure your boss keeps their personal problems far away from their business.
I feel like every day, my job is in jeopardy. Maybe tomorrow I won't even have one any more.. That's the problem.. I really can never know 100%. It's no fault of my own though if it were to end, not like I would be fired. I can't control the flaws of the owner or the debts they have built up to put their business in such peril. If it did end tomorrow, I would probably drink a bottle of wine and be relaxed for the first time in months! I would also share that joy with my co workers.. knowing our hell ride is over!
I have been looking for other jobs.. so it's not like I'm not being proactive. I also know that quitting before finding something, as tempting as it to walk out even at this very moment.. will only cause more problems. Sometimes though, it's not worth the hassle to feel like shit over a job you don't care about.
My boss... does not understand how to properly manage/run a business. It's actually quite sad. There are simple business 101 things that not just business owners, but everyday people with common sense can see.
Don't dig yourself into debt that will bury you. If you do.. keep your employees out of it. I feel as though it's my debt some days.
Don't tell your employee's every aspect of what could potentially go wrong, so they are worried every day about their futures.
Don't have more stores than you can afford to put employees in. Working 2 stores with 1 wage is ridiculous. If I'm busy in one store, I have no choice but to ignore customers in the other, which in turn, reflects poorly on me, you, and the business's reputation. Not to mention shoplifting!
That being said, if a store makes 10% of the cost to run it... CLOSE IT! How is that at all hard to comprehend?
Don't lower your most valuable employee's wages (to help cut costs), then expect them to do more. All you are asking for is contempt towards your business.
Don't use other business's services and not ever pay them what they are rightfully owed! There are only so many bridges to burn in this city... and it looks like you've just about used and abused all of them! Included in that, when you have collectors coming after you, don't leave your employee's to deal with said business's anger towards you.
Also, if you plan to have a business with a store front.. stocking the store might help! Nothing is worse than being blamed for how poor sales are, when you are stuck with next to no sizes to sell! Again, that reflects poorly on your business!
My last major point, if you are so worried about how your business' are going to make it, and worrying about every bill month to month.. one small thing that might help.. BE HERE! Be at your business every day, work hard to make sales knowing it's YOUR livelihood at stake! Don't just sit at home dictating what you want done, and focusing all your time on schemes to make fast money, or pointless hours sitting by a computer working on things that are never going to happen. It's a waste of time, and part of the reason your business WILL fail. Quit being lazy, making excuses and just generally pissing away your time and do something proactive.
Sigh... There are many more I could add to this.. but I'm sure you get the point. My boss is incompetent.
The worst part is, I've always wanted to own my own business. I also would like to take accounting. Those are my goals. So watching all of this happen is extremely painful for me. The only good side, is that it shows me that I certainly can succeed at what I want to do, because I would never treat my business nor myself that way. I have to much self respect, common sense and understanding of even basic business practices.
Soon I will be out of here, and will actually have a sense of happiness when it all comes crashing down. It's coming down to a matter of months that this business can actually survive. If only the owner could realize this.. but I'm sure the fantasy land they are in is much more peaceful than the reality that is failure. I wish I could be so numb, idiotic and naive.
